amandam_cairns

I am so fucking depressed. I want my best friend back. I dont even know how to act.

fuck everyone 4e





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Oddly enough, I'm happy I ain't famous
Imagine waking up to the fact that you're simply entertainment
I bet god thinks you're amusing
"

I want someone important in my life. everyone just seems to float in and out.



...the end of today was pretty good though :]






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And if I spent anymore time inside my head
I'd probably need some leather straps attatched to my bed
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I don't even know. or remember. anything.





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Me and my friends, we don't encourage discipline
Or really much of anything
We do our drugs to wheel it up and tell ourselves that this is love
But it's never added up
And it'll never be enough, no it'll never be enough

The same corner booth
The same Smith Street bar
The same sour mouths
The same empty arms
Forever and ever, our lives on a loop

It's the same dollar drafts
The same whiskey words
The same hanging hearts
The same old scorched earth
Further and further, away from the truth

I wanna stop it
I wanna stop it
I wanna stop it
But it's the only life I know how to live

Make a mess of what matters, give our good grace away
We try to drink the clock backwards, and pretend like nothing's changed
But you think I'm a liar and you think I'm a fake
And I think you're a coward, but that's not what I say
I call you my brother
And you call me the same.
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I deleted everything.

Gabby Cheyanne Shelby Sara Karen and myself. My birthday party rox. I forget get everything I am saying. I just kissed Shelby a mitnute ago. Im am time traveling fast now. We need to get my brithday pizza. cousin of gabzyz cousin is saucy. lsakdfjooololol watch damnit we amost evertything. eliza shelby seemed to be as difted off the boat. bye bye we are eeating zee pizza. bye!

this is amanda, gabz, and erica. it is march 9th, 2008. it is 6:03a.m., and at 5:55a.m. we talked about the world ending, and then something snapped. something below hell, told us that the comet that swiped away the dinosaurs is actually planet x, "Nibiru", is the planet that will collide into our earth on December 21, 2012 according into the miyans. today at 555pm we'll all have coffee and discuss future references. me, erica, amanda, kevin, bill gates, pat gates, adam, xavier, and albert. thank you for reading.